Spring is Coming... maybe after so many years !!!

Spring is Coming... maybe after so many years !!!

Love Actually

May be I am too small to write about love .. or may be I am too old to hide what I think.

What I see around me is completely different what I think. Well I am not a philosopher, never wanted to be and never will be. It's something which I feel from my inside. I started to write it down.

What I can see that today the word love has lost it's meaning. well it never had a meaning in a dictionary as dictionary requires a definition . and ther is no definition of love. atleast I could not find.

What I believe is love rerequires following things ..

Determination : It's not something which you can get for a moment, a day, a month or few years .. it's lifetime.
You have to be determinated to your love without boundry of time span. If you forget it anytime you were never for it.

Blind : Some peoples may not agree but I comepltely agree that love is blind and also believes that it should be blind. If I am in love then I could not see anything but my love. Sometimes I even feel that love should not only be blind but also deaf and mute. I just remember the "Three Monkeys OF M.K. Gandhi". Now I know what does that mean. Love has just only one sense .. It can only feel. If you start looking , seeing or hearing anything else then it may divert you from your love. Hmmm.. and if it's love nothing can divert you from it.

I just remember one story of "DNYNANESHWAR".You can read more about him on wiki here http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dnyaneshwar . He was one of the awesome personality ever seen by mankind. This told me what is determination.

Dnynaneshwar was living with" his tow brothers and one sister. All of them were extra-ordinary for normal mankind. Just an "pure" example of determination. They used to go to door-by-door for "Bhiksha". One day they were going somewhere. Older-most brother "Nivrutti Nath" was in front followed by Dnyaneshwar followed by younger brother "Sopan" and sister "Muktai" at last. while walking Dnynashwar see one piece gold lying on the road. "Nivrutti" passed by it. Dnynaneshwar see's that and he tried to hide it by putting some dust over it so that "muktai" could not see that. Here Nivritti says "If you were full determind then you couldn't have found the difference between the dust and the gold. It's other thing that you havn't gone for taking it. But identifying it as a gold shows that you are not determind to the aim"

Moral of the story .. If you are completely determind then nothing can destruct you from it. That's purity and that is determination.

Though determination is required for each n ecery thing you want to achieve in life but in case of love it must be 100%

Me Myself and Irene

Me , Myself and Irene are three diffrent things for me.

I am trying to resolve which one is true , which one is stronger and which one I should be .. Confused ?

This is my journey .. to find myself .

Well.. according to me every one is having multiple personalities in him /her and I am not the Exceptional case :) . I am having somethings diffrent for each time. So this is just the begining of the search.

Now let me start with. what I know about me. I am having at least thease personalities .

Normal .. like every one sees and feels about me. I am a shy guy. yes .. but someones won't believe that. many time my cusins bros and sis calls me as "Moms son .." . I don't like talk to strangers .. don't like to increase the frnds size .. don't like to get in the crowd. That makes me quite lonely too.

As a Friend ... as I said I am not having too many friends .. but that makes those who are my friesnds very special. But I don't allow them to get it and understand it. only some (?) of them knows how I am. not 100% though but more than 70% about me. but guess this no. is very less (undisclosed)

For my Love .... I am a Psycho. I don't know I am a Psycho or my love made me psycho. She is just in mind each n every time sucking my energy ... just like a ghost. I can't stay away from her and can't stay without her. total loss. well this things are not known tomany of my friends maybe none of them. neither my love too. and I don't want to tell her anytime :(

Hidden ... This is hidden and it should stay hidden ... I am not going to pulish it on the web :)